Zero...Finally

I haven't posted in a while - not because there was a dirth of news. I just figured there was no need to give a week by week update. :)

After my last week's results, I was told to resume Birth Control Pills and after today's results, I was told that my levels are finally at zero! Wow - nearly 2 months since the horrible fiasco began. Sigh!

Anyways, I am to continue my birth control pills and resume my prenatal vitamins. I have to have a consultation with Dr BT to discuss next steps. Sigh. That is scheduled for Monday November 1st at 3:30pm. I don't know why I am slightly nervous about that, but I am. I thought I was supposed to start the prescription strength folic acid, but the nurse told me I had to meet with Dr BT first and go from there.

I guess we'll see what happens. I don't know...I should feel more excited, but I feel ambivalent. I am afraid to hear what is next. Will we have another change? Will I have the strength to go through it all? Can I keep myself from being less engaged but still engaged? It is soo hard. I don't know it's the last attempt and that does weigh on me. I hope I am strong enough for whatever news I hear. So yeah - nervous about my Monday appointment. We'll see.

Anyways - for now I am zero! So yay! I am relieved. I know I am but I am nervous.